exp\ing w/dd glocal convos

aka: prototyping (practicing/experimenting-with/iterating) deep dive zoom dance\ing convos/communication

aka: how far into my chamber can you come w/o me compromising eudaimonia ness (what i have to offer/gift) to shiny ness (can’t think with noise ness) or compassion ness (having to make a trade for others needs)…. and how far do we need you to come in order for us to dance (to get strong/brave enough to try/model a different experiment – for all of us)… and of course.. vv (i think i meant dd here – deep dive)

aka: dd of what do i choose to do w/my free\dom, how do i be.. in order for you to be free (o bishop)

aka: deep dive of ni  (re\wire)


glocal (via googled defn)..

reflecting or characterized by both local and global considerations.


and as always via..



thinking first (prompting page) of trust. and how it begs to be 100%/unconditional – otherwise it’s just judgment. and how we are so not that way today. (ie: we are not trusting that people are good.. we’ve got too much going on..rather than simply asking.. are you human.. ok then i know you) and how to get back to that.

thinking as a zoom out.. the need for some mechanism/placebo to get us back in sync/trust mode.

thinking as a zoom in.. the need for some one that already has that sync/trust mode with you .. at least approaching zero as much as possible.. in order to approach the upper limit of  energy\ness

(and.. to model/do it ourselves..)

thinking of thoughts after devijver experiment.. how it could all be virtual. how it needs to be both.. all at once.. always.. ie: 2 convers as infra


the initial convo… a spewing out. the too much ness and not enough ness. ugh.

the need for 100% time to take it in..rather than to schedule an appt.. or add at the end of the day.. because otherwise we miss the grey in between. the stuff we think is nothing.. or that we can’t see/hear.. (lennon/ono ness)

24/7.. just to see. how deep can we dive. so that the diving is beyond us.. for all of us.


on time to be with family/friends.


on wishing i could hear/speak better.. or perhaps not at all..

saying when i know when i’m with mom… when i shared Mikey‘s device…

device as placebo.. till get back to us.. be\cause the goal is the mom thing.. the rubbing feet thing.. as the day.

one note book notes – and two are better than one (on beyond the skill and the love.. the present able ness and the people person ness and ..)


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on soul mate ness and friend ness

googling… found:


Soul Mate: Someone who is aligned with your soul and is sent to challenge, awaken and stir different parts of you in order for your soul to transcend to a higher level of consciousness and awareness. Once the lesson has been learnt, physical separation usually occurs.

i don’t know..  perhaps it was a project mate.. (if once lesson learnt separation happens).. rather than a soul mate.

Life Partner: A companion, a friend, a stable and secure individual who you can lean on, trust and depend on to help you through life. There is a mutual feeling of love and respect and you are both in sync with each others needs and wants. 


Soulmate relationships are often not forever, this is because sometimes the relationship can be too intense or there is a certain karmic energy to the relationship that sees it come to a close once the necessary lessons have been learnt

? question the not forever ness.. seems a diff term would help with that (project mate or whatever). i don’t think something as deep as a – soul – mate would be topic specific.


When you align with your true self, you are then instantly in the vibration of meeting your soul-mate.


Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person.

– Richard Bach
whoa. james. cool..
but don’t most balloons go up..

main thinking/wondering/pondering/curiosity..  is that of… friend as good/necessity (being known by someone).. may need to schedule/commit to set times to ensure/care-take the relationship. soul mate – while perhaps not a necessity.. our greatest yearning. seems scheduling time would seem foreign/irrelevant. 24/7 ness. thinking too.. perhaps if we were free enough to know our own soul (eudaimonia ness) we’d be more inclined to find a soul mate.. less inclined to seek marriage.. as we know it. as we as humans have manufactured it. eudaimonian match seems more fitting to our fittingness.. a and a ness..

so thinking.. scarcity/limitations in having friends: time in the day. so limit number of friends (don’t know if words, ie: friend, is right)… scarcity/imitations in having soul mate: likely only run into one. so if you want it.. drop everything for it (don’t know if words, ie: everything, is right).. and/or.. no need to do (ie: drop everything or schedule) anything.. because it will be .. what it is.


Mary Ann (bottom) – on Rob dying.. taking it in… saying good bye.. letting go



And don’t worry about losing. If it is right, it happens — The main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away.


more on adv energy page on one note (on old phone) – can’t access


i want to hold your hand


on the way – beat again – then there – stops..  for a beginning..? washing over ness

Stendhal Syndrome: Can Art Destroy Us?


so moved.. so affected by outrageous beauty..

can literally lose consciousness.. pass out… – stendhal…

at what price.. can you have too much ecstacy


when i say stuff.. am i trying to verify it.. is saying it a sign that i’m not sure..

magis esse quam videri


trying to experiment. i don’t think i fit. any where.

or can i just not get out. enough.

is there a reachable soul mate for everyone.. then too.. how far do you take it at the group/tribe level.. can we make consensus irrelevant.. no doubt we can make it very small.. but how small.. in all the degrees of ni ness

thinking about no rules.. except free to quit.. how to make sure that’s always an option.. esp up close..


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a look through the layers.. how to be us.. shalom. nothing to prove. just sweet/deep curiosity.


amore mio, tu sei la risposta alle mie preghiere – from adv energy page


masks and measures – from the roller coaster of – (god i hope) – getting to us..


same song second verse .. god ab hope not