dear evan hansen

The musical and movie were inspired by the true story of Benj Pasek, the show’s lyricist, who, after a high school classmate died of a drug overdose, witnessed classmates tell false stories of being part of the deceased student’s life

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dear_Evan_Hansen

Dear Evan Hansen is a musical with music and lyrics by Benj Pasek and Justin Paul, and ..The musical follows Evan Hansen, a high school senior with social anxiety, “who invents an important role for himself in a tragedy that he did not earn”

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pasek_and_Paul

Benj Pasek and Justin Paul, known together as Pasek and Paul, are an American songwriting duo and composing team for musical theater, films and television. Their works include A Christmas StoryDogfightEdgesDear Evan Hansen, and James and the Giant Peach. Their original songs have been featured on NBC’s Smash and in the films La La Land, ..

notes/quotes from 2 hour film:

2 min – be yourself.. but also confident.. and approachable.. and.. can anybody see.. is anybody waving back at me.. on the outside always looking in.. i try to speak but nobody will hear.. can anybody see..

ah peter – that voice

51 min – though he wanted to .. he couldn’t talk to you.. he couldn’t find a way.. we’re a million worlds apart.. if i could tell her.. and he kept it all inside his head.. how do you say.. i love you.. if i could tell her..

54 min – i’m glad you’re here

56 min – people like us? yeah right we have so much in common.. you’re blah blah blah.. and i am not.. (what do you take?).. meds talk

josh ovalle.. grammatis broken law.. et al

57 min – you know you don’t really act like a depressed person (i’m just good at staying anonymous.. same as you.. there are a lot of people who feel like us.. people that you wouldn’t think)

do you ever look at all the people who seem to know exactly how to be.. you think.. they don’t need piles of prescriptions to function naturally.. well look again.. and you might catch it.. just stay a minute more.. there’s this little moment after the.. semi smile.. as their eyes fall to the floor.. the anonymous ones never let you see the ache they carry.. never name that quiet pain they burry..

krishnamurti measure law.. hari present in society law.. hari rat park law.. maté addiction law.. et al

smiles ness..

58 min – so they keep on keeping secrets that they think they have to hide.. if everybody’s secret is they have that secret side.. and to know they’re somehow not alone.. that’s all they’re hoping for.. what if they didn’t have to stay anonymous anymore..

nothing hidden ness

59 min – spot the girl who stays in motion.. she stays so fast that she won’t fall.. she’s built a wall w her achievements.. to keep out the question .. w/o it is she worth anything at all..

kierkegaard busy ness law.. norton productivity law.. cain achieve law.. et al

so nobody can know.. just what the cracks might show.. how deep and dark they go.. those anonymous ones.. stuck inside the perfect frame they’re faking.. all of us anonymous ones who pick themselves apart till they start breaking

crazywise (doc) et al

and we keep on keeping secrets that we think we have to hide but what we really need is somebody to see that secret side.. and to know.. we’re somehow not alone is all we’re hoping for.. and then we woudn’t have to be anonymous anymore..

fix vs not hidden.. eisenstein i know you law..

pearson unconditional law.. paul know\love law.. et al

the parts we can’t tell we carry them well but that doesn’t mean they’re not heavy

the anonymous one.. noticed by none..

1:03 – he was such a sweet boy underneath it all.. everything just hurt too much

maté addiction law.. cope\ing ness.. khan filling the gaps law.. crazywise (doc).. hari present in society law.. et al

1:08 – have you ever felt like nobody was there.. forgotten in the middle of nowhere.. like you could disappear.. like you could fall and no one could hear.. nobody is alone.. i just wish we could have given that to him.. let that lonely feeling wash away.. maybe there’s a reason to believe you’ll be ok.. because when you don’t fell strong enough to stand.. you can reach out your hand.. even when the dark comes crashing you .. you will be found.. you’ll rise again.. lift your head and look around.. you will be found..

1:11 – there’s a place where we don’t have to feel unknown.. every time you call out your a little less alone.. from across the silence.. your voice is heard.. i know someone who really needed to hear this today.. we are not alone.. none of us.. even when the dark comes crashing thru.. when you need someone to carry you.. when you’ve broken all the ground.. if you only look around…. find the others.. i should have talked.. you are not alone..

1:23 – i don’t need you to sell me on reasons to want you.. to search for the reasons i should.. you don’t have to convince me.. be scared you’re not enough.. i don’t need more reminders of all that’s been broken.. i don’t need you to fix what i’d rather forget..

fix vs not hidden.. rowson mechanical law.. et al

1:24 – clear the slate and start over.. try to quiet the noises in your head.. we can’t compete with all that.. so what if it’s only us.. and what came before won’t count any more.. or matter.. can we try that.. what if it’s you and me and that’s all we need it to be

equity – everyone getting a go ..every day

imagine if we.. listening that deep.. to that itch-in-the-soul..

1:25 – i never thought there’d be someone like you who would want me.. so i give you 10 000 reasons to not let me go.. but if you really see me.. if you like me for me and nothing else.. that’s all i’ve wanted for longer than you could possibly know.. so it can be us.. and what came before won’t count anymore or matter.. we can try that.. that’s not impossible.. cause you’re saying it’s possible.. we can let the whole world disappear.. till you’re the only one i still know how to see.. we can try that.. that’s all that we need it to be.. and the rest of the world falls away

norton productivity law

the little prince – see with your heart ness.. hari rat park law.. sea world et al

1:36 – the parts we can’t tell .. we carry them well.. but that doesn’t mean they’re not heavy

1:43 – words fail.. there’s nothing i can say.. nothing can make sense of all these things i’ve done..

1:49 – i never let them see the worst of me.. because what if everyone saw/knew.. would they like what they saw or would they hate it too.. i just keep running away from what’s true.. all i ever do is run..

fix vs not hidden

1:53 – do you hate me now.. you should.. if you know how broken i am.. (i already know you.. and i love you.. i promise you that someday.. all of this is going to feel like a very long time ago.. i’ll be here when it all feels so big till it all feels so small.. it’s gonna get better i promise)

2:03 – today.. what felt so far away feels a little closer..

2:07 – wish we could have met now.. today.. for the first time

2:08 – today is going to be a good day and here’s why.. because today you’re you.. no hiding/lying and that’s enough.. so no matter how hard it gets.. even if it seems impossible.. this time you’ll know.. don’t let go.. just hold on.. and keep going.. today.. it feels a little closer

please stay

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suicide {glossary}

mental health

ptsd

depression

addiction

dis\order

loneliness

please stay – levi the poet

Nadine Burke Harris – early adversity – aces=4 – suicide 12 times higher

Graham Moore

Kevin Owocki

Jane Costello

Virginia Woolf

Jacelyn Charger

my ascension

amy tan (doc)

dear evan hansen

et al

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missing pieces

a nother way

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