rest

adding page while reading David Whyte‘s consolations:

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rest

rest is the convo between what we love to do and how we love to be

fittingness

to rest is to give up on the already exhausted will as the prime motivator of endeavor, w its endless outward need to reward itself thru established goals.. to rest is to give up on worrying and fretting and the sense that here is something wrong w the world unless we are there to put it right; to rest is to fall back literally or figuratively form outer targets and shift the goal not to an inner static bull’s eye, an imagined state of perfect stillness, but to an inner state of natural *exchange

*perhaps dance.. the word exchange unsettles me because it makes me think of tit for tat ness.. and the keeping track of things

the template of natural *exchange is the breath, the autonomic giving and receiving that forms the basis and the **measure of life itself.

*dance

autonomic: involuntary or unconscious; relating to the autonomic nervous system.

**being (or something.. other than measure)

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we are rested when we are a living exchange between what lies inside and what lies outside, when we are an intriguing convo between the potential that lies in our imagination and the possibilities for making that internal image real in the world

eudaimoniative surplus

we are rested when we let things alone and let ourselves alone, to do what we do best, breathe as the body intended us to breathe walk as we were meant walk.. live w the rhythm of a house and a home..

listen to the rhythm

when we give/take in an easy foundational way we are a closest to the authentic self, and closest to that self when we are most rested..

have/need ness

to rest is not self indulgent, to rest is to prep to give the best of ourselves, and to perhaps, most importantly, arrive at a place where we are able to understand what we have already been given

breadenough ness and the possibility to get back/to an undisturbed ecosystem

in the first state of rest is the sense of stopping, of giving up on what we have been doing or how we have been being..

let go of the things you have to cling to .. ness

in the second, is the sense of slowly coming home, the physical journey into the body’s uncoerced and unbullied self, as if trying to remember the way or eve the destination itself

supposed to’s.. of school/work

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in the third state is a sense of healing and self forgiveness and of arrival.

in the fourth state.. deep in the primal exchange of the breath, is the give and the take.. and the ability to delight in both

the fifth sated is a sense of absolute readiness and presence.. a sense of being the meeting itself between inner and outer, and that receiving and responding occur in one spontaneous movement

fromm spontaneous law et al

a deep experience of rest is the template of perfection in the human imagination, a perspective from which we are able to perceive the outer specific forms of our work and our relationships whilst being nourished by the shared foundational give of the breath itself.. from this perspective we can be rested while putting together an elaborate meal for an arriving crowd, whilst climbing the highest mountain or sitting at home surrounded thy the chaos of a living gamily..

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rested we are ready for the world but not held hostage by it, rested we care again for the right things/people/way..

art (by day/light) and sleep (by night/dark) as re\set.. to fittingness

 

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