if i want
one of the conversations i hear over and over in my head/heart.
having the luxury to do whatever you want..to find/do/be the thing you can’t not do..
a sustainable/wanted grit..
You probably know to ask yourself, “What do I want?” Here’s a way better question
f I ask you, “What do you want out of life?” and you say something like, “I want to be happy and have a great family and a job I like,” it’s so ubiquitous that it doesn’t even mean anything.
A more interesting question, a question that perhaps you’ve never considered before, is what pain do you want in your life? What are you willing to struggle for?Because that seems to be a greater determinant of how our lives turn out.
If you find yourself wanting something month after month, year after year, yet nothing happens and you never come any closer to it, then maybe what you actually want is a fantasy, an idealization, an image and a false promise. Maybe what you want isn’t what you want, you just enjoy wanting. Maybe you don’t actually want it at all.
I was in love with the result—the image of me on stage, people cheering, me rocking out, pouring my heart into what I’m playing—but I wasn’t in love with the process. And because of that, I failed at it.
But the truth is far less interesting than that: I thought I wanted something, but it turns out I didn’t. End of story.
people don’t change
(Unless they want to)
Humans are unique in their ability to willingly change. We can change our attitude, our appearance and our skillset.
But only when we want to.
The hard part, then, isn’t the changing it.
It’s the wanting it.
but so too still.. when wanting isn’t enough.. ie: imagine a turtle