why are we ambitious?..
‘if we were not, nothing would get done in the world.. ambition is another name for progress. w/o progress, we would decay, wither away’
in getting things done in the world, we are also breeding wars and untold miseries. is ambition progress? for the moment we are not considering progress, but ambition. why are we ambitious? why do we want to succeed, to be somebody?.. why do we struggle to be superior?.. why all this effort to assert oneself, whether directly, or thru an ideology or the state..? is not this self assertion the main cause of our conflict and confusion..? w/o ambition would we perish..? can we not physically survive w/o being ambitious?
does this desire for success, for applause, bring conflict both w/in and w/o? would being free of ambition mean decay? is it stagnation to have no conflict?
why are we clever and ambitious? is not ambition an urge to avoid what is? is not this cleverness really stupid, which is what we are?.. why are we so frightened of what is?.. what is the good of running away if whatever we are is always there?.. we may succeed in escaping, but that we are is still there, breeding conflict and misery.. why are we so frightened of our loneliness, of our emptiness..
any activity away from what is is bound to bring sorrow and antagonism.. conflict is the denial of what is or the running away from what is; there is no conflict other than that. our conflict becomes more and more complex and insoluble because we do not face what is.. there is no complexity in what is, but only in the many escapes that we seek
ambition is a word that lacks any real ambition, ambition is frozen desire, the current of a vocational life immobilized and over concretized to set unforgiving goals… ambition abstracts us from the underlying elemental nature of the creative convo while providing us the cover of a target that has become false thru over description, overfamiliarity or too much understanding
the ease of having an ambitions is that it can be explained to others; the very disease of ambition is that it can be so easily explained to others.. what is worthy of a life’s dedication does not want to be known by us in ways that diminish its actual sense of presence.. everything true to itself has its own secret language and an internal intentionality w a secret surprising flow, even to the person who supposedly puts it all in motion
idio-jargon et al
we may direct the beam of ambition to illuminate a certain corner of the future world but ultimately it can reveal to us only those dreams with which we have already become familiar
no matter the self conceited importance of our labors we are all compost for worlds we cannot yet imagine..
ambition takes willpower and constant applications of energy to stay on a perceived bearing; but a serious vocational calling demands a constant attention to the unknown gravitational field that surrounds us and from which we recharge ourselves.. as if breathing from the atmosphere of possibility itself..