a perfect day

amanda judd pic

she gets up early to go practice her song.

one more time.

before she shares.

she shares it/herself.

the song/she is beautiful.

one wonders how much difference diligence to practicing an art – your art – can make.

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she notices a quarrel.

she quietly slides into the picture.

offering her lap.

that’s all that was needed.

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she dances with her brother.

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she organizes a gathering.

of fun.

of snow.

of simplicity.

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she studies.

she leans into it.

wrestling with it.

getting it.

not getting it.

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the day is past its end.

she’s still not done.

so in comes the tone/air/question.

of responsibility.

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responsibility to what?

school math?

what might she have taken out of her day for that?

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as a mom, i would choose nothing.

it was a perfect day.

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but wait.

i’d remove the invisible, yet incredibly loud, omnipresence, of this mandated/assumed responsibility.

it’s hastening a death.

a death i don’t choose for my own.

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so why are we letting that stay?

why have i not yet removed that?

live each day.